So my son goes in for a routine surgery today, ear tubes and adenoid removal. Why did I not feel like this was routine. I mean you hand over your kid, your flesh and blood, over to someone who makes their living cutting people up. The surgery went fine and he is completely Ok but damn it I have not this scared since the last time the same child had a surgery, also a routine hernia surgery. It makes me feel lucky that he doesn't have some horrible disease that he has lengthy procedures and the outcome is far more uncertain but am I out of line line being scared shitless and keeping a brave face so he isn't scared? Just a little background he and his brother were twins and born at 32 weeks, they spent two months in a NICU and there were times when their futures were not certain. They are normal healthy boys now and they are the reason I wake up every day. I felt so helpless and not in control both times he has had surgery. Is that a normal feeling or am I just a fucking wuss. Thanks for letting me vent a little, if my wife knew I was as scared as I was she would have freaked out. Being the strong one sucks sometimes I guess.